Ruminate this, bitch.

It's science, right? Everything that goes up must come down. Emotions too high will bring emotions too low. Still, I forget. And, for clarification purposes, I'm not too low right now. Perhaps not necessarily low but more of in a state of deep contemplation, which just so happens to depress and scare me a little. And no …

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Gettin’ There.

Another random post where I just want to write my thoughts as they are - as me! 😀 It's been a while, I think, since I last checked in like this. Unsurprisingly, life has continued to present itself in a glorious array of ups and downs. As I've gotten further in DBT (about 8 months …

Cass.

I am ignorance Vision like a tunnel Hearing spanning a radius of two feet I am unaware of the dangers That exist around me I am comfort Or the relentless absence of I am your intuitive instinct Red flags that make you rethink I beg you to listen to me I am fear Shaking first …

Sink Sink.

Sat by the river again today. Thought of drowning so slowly, allowing deep pain to flow out of me Hitting rocks and branches on its way. I wish I did. Instead Darcy called and started blaming me for the kids And all their shit. I apologized but she insisted that this was it, she'd had …

K.

Happiness fleets and again I retreat, so far away from this world. In a land of my own, I inject. So heavy this head begins to feel on this neck and I fall down. So begins the blackout, my unconscious returning to bliss. Get a load of this - I can jump from the tower …